Touching the Shadow

Audio Podcast: We Are Entering a New World (28 min)

2011-12-18T14:41:00.005-04:00

Depth Psychological Interpretation of "Black Swan"

2011-01-16T16:13:00.001-04:00

First this film depicts the main mental epidemic the whole modern world is going through and will be increasingly. this girl is totally devoid/split off of her shadow side (the black swan). the director exquisitely catches how while she fee...ls it's is a conspiracy against her, and the audience is taken along in this paranoia, it is all along she herself (her shadow) that is taking over the white swan. Her unconscious is conspiring to get rid of the white swan. Yet she is lost in her projections of her shadow on this shady girl who perfectly fits that bill of her own dark swan. Yet it is she herself that ends up killing her white swan pole, in order that the shadow side can take center stage. It is really a master piece which captures the main mental drama of the West. But so far indeed this story of the modern mind doesn't end good. there's no re-union of the 2 sides. Yet it is a high fidelity representation of how the western/modern world is having a psychotic episode. after many many years of practice with the problem of the shadow...this film really nails it. Films are dreams and we are in dire need of addressing this problem and and thus imagining and making films where there's some level of reconciliation with the shadow if this modern world is to survive itself. there is so much more to say... i will address it more later.

Dying Birds & The Observation Problem

2011-01-08T03:10:00.003-04:00

d problem of environmental pollution & dying birds/bees/fish etc., in terms of the observation problem: the observer tends 2 erroneously experience himself separate from what he is observing. what we direly fail 2 c when we speak of environmental damage/pollution etc is that whatever we c being done 2 d environment is also being done onto us. it is literally a reflection of what is being done onto us by ourselves.

A Synchronistic Life

2010-12-19T23:45:00.010-04:00

It started in dreams that every little thing had a meaning. Once i could see the meaning in dreams i could like read movies and would see things no one else saw. but beyond dreams & movies there was a director at work...arranging things...but than i realized that also outside the dreams everything was happening because... and with meaning. that meaning was organizing everything.

like i would see in dreams that someone would loose their wallet and it had a meaning, but the same thing was occurring out of the dreams. or being jumped. a stairway...when would certain animals or insects appear...yes i started to see that the same thing happening in dreams happened outside. the body...

why some one would loose their voice, or an injury. a flat tire...a battery that goes dead...everything (i guess this is what happens on DMT...which most can't fathom). The physicians study the how of organs but all the real action lie in the why... so this is how i have evolved to look at everything...in terms of meaning. every object, a door, a window, a tree...certain foods...organs (your mouth...heart...liver...hair) everything resonates based on it's meaning. brittle hair...a too thick pocket book...clothes worn inside out...a plant that doesn't grow... so not only do i look so @ movies. once you see the real meaning of anything you see it for what it really is.

In the absence of true purpose we need plans

2010-12-10T00:06:00.005-04:00

The real work is to let go and just flow with the river. When we do this true purpose unfolds. Planning and strategizing is fighting the flow. The piece of art will make itself better than we ever could. it will come from within. Planning is mechanical. The flow is love. Just be in love with it. Be nature's instrument. let it show you what it wants to be. The great writer Edwardo Galeano, when writing his greatest works said...the story picked him to tell it to the world. Michelangelo would free the image from the stone. it was already in the stone. the true artist just masters a language with which s/he can help us see/hear/feel the muses. we need to live life like an artist. the true artist creates by letting go. strange things happen, even logistically when we stop resisting.

Choice vs Free Will

2010-12-10T00:01:00.004-04:00

Purpose (what people refer to mostly as destiny) is from within, something we choose and have chosen to come here and fulfill (even before we came), not something that befalls us against our will. The essential Q is what is (really) free will? No one will stop you from 'choosing' any path (for instance one different to your true purpose). But technically speaking that is not free will. So choice is not yet free will. I can choose something but it is not yet free will. The core is if it comes from within or without (meaning the prompt). we can be manipulated into choosing something or a path. The 'idea' of true purpose would be connected to real free will meaning unconditioned. Coming truly from within and thus from ourselves and not from without/others. Only a real individual can exersize free will (technically speaking). The word destiny is a tricky one here for it is linked to predestination and fate and can be construed as something happening beyond ones choice. true purpose is quite the opposite.

I start to get wet only when I observe it is raining.

2010-12-05T20:02:00.004-04:00

I start to get wet when I observe it is raining, not before.

My son came home yesterday. he said daddy daddy i have big news. i had a huge breakthrough with your work. He said he got off the bus. and didn't realize it was raining. and that for those instances he didn't realize it was raining, (yet) while walking in it, he didn't get wet.

You are the Glass

2010-11-23T01:55:00.000-04:00

Is the glass half full or half empty?
realize the truth is: there is no glass...
than you will see that
it's not the glass that is half full...
It is you that is half empty...

Dimitri Halley

A heart attack is a crime of passion

2010-11-11T22:37:00.005-04:00

A heart attack is a crime of passion.

only here it is a part of us (♥), who attacks us from within...

It is an attack of the shadow.

We have let ourselves be induced by science into a very solar understanding of the body and conned from the deeper meaning of things/organs etc.

I just told my son who is in high school. They teach you all a day/sun version of things but at night a less graspable version of the same things comes out, which science pretends does not exist.

But often is not very happy with us. The great Nobel man Wolfgang Pauli of the study of the atom referred to it as the spirit in matter...others as the ghost in the atom. In his dreams she would attack him.

Today i saw a dream of a man in which she (his shadow) emerged and not happy with him and toward the end of the dream she was next to him and told him: "... this was not a dream.

Dream Synchronicity with X-MEN ORIGINS

2010-11-11T02:35:00.005-04:00

On 6.11.10 at 4:44 a FB friend sent me this Q on my friend FB page: "do you know of any fictional authors or stories that deal with the
governing myth? Like in your Psychotropics, Memory Control & The
Governing Myth: the Return of Christ/s video(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7cxsvgEQa-U ). If so that would be awesome."... . That night i had the following dream: I am standing with or in front of a woman (who i also assist with my work/method of touching the shadow). While standing in front of her...like wooden picks start coming out of my thumb. But on them also like little hooks of blades. They are wooden. We take them out and make like circles or wheels on her dress (white). It is only afterwards i kept meditating on this scene of these blades coming out of my nails of my hand/fingers that i realized that this was actually a scene of wolverine of the movie X-MEN. At 1:03 of the trailer linked here this is exactly the scene of the dream. I haven't seen this latest version of the movie yet. But was totally amazed how at 0:57 is said to Wolverine: "become the animal" and at 1:01 till 1:03 "embrace the other side". This is exactly my method called touching the shadow where we have to embrace the side we have rejected in ourselves. It is when he embraces his shadow that these powers of wolverine are unleashed. The coincidence is that this is exactly what is meant with and in The Governing Myth; the Return of Christ/s video. This is an incredible synchronicity for this is the X-MEN ORIGINS movie and these powers are unleashed, is shown here, when the side of us we are most rejecting is touched/embraced. This is how the X-MEN (mutants) are created and how it all started. In this more extensive trailer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=je2MFXDr7xw&feature=related
is shown how he goes about training and recruiting other mutants to form a special team...which also strongly correlates with the building of a quantum community -> see side bar of my/this page..., and which hitherto is what the idea and video of the the governing myth; the return of christ/s was based on in the first place.

Eros

2010-11-09T00:03:00.001-04:00

You can't buy feeling even if you wear a dress.

DMT dream

2010-11-06T10:54:00.003-04:00

Dream last night: shown an article: DMT: Who started with it. Flying, floating in deep meditation. once i lift, nothing could harm me. I was being attacked by among others a girl. I said it's ok leave her. Another woman + others were holding onto me. I said no not to me: find your own momentum. people watching, others charging for my show. I said people will always remain prostitutes. They don't even C it anymore.

Reality is information

2010-10-16T00:39:00.001-04:00

Reality cannot be seen straight or objectively. it is information and has to be interpreted. So if we can't see beyond our projections or
interpretations (meaning) of things, the question becomes how to find
the right meaning or interpretation of reality. This is found in world mythology. here we find the right code or language able to interpret and translate this text or meaning of reality correctly.

Through my concepts

2010-10-12T01:23:00.001-04:00

I experience the world through my concepts, hence it represents a part of me (Dimitri Halley).

There are No Accidents

2010-02-05T01:28:00.001-04:00

Last night I gave a repeat of the Dream Code lecture for all those who couldn't get in the first one. It was great. I've received much wonderful feedback, which I want to thank those that gave me again. The morning of/before the lecture (3 feb) I had a dream which I believe reflected the gist of what the lecture was about. In this dream I'm giving a lecture. Michael Douglas from the movie Wall Street (1987) is in the audience. He is playing the Wall Street guy/role he played in the film here in real life on me. I go on a rant saying: "life is the role we play" (not a role but all or both roles): "the bad/devil and the good...and I mention a bunch of these binaries. Than I say: "It is not a coincidence what role we are allocated in Movies as actors". John Travolta is there. I say or refer to Travolta's role in Films as: Phenomenon. I say nothing is an accident; (referring to) the roles Michael Douglas gets vs. Travolta's roles. There are no accidents. At the end I say: "I want to end with just this: I LOVE YOU".

Dream Synchronicity based on 2012 dreams

2009-12-17T15:28:00.009-04:00

Last night I had a dream. Admittedly it is a bit liminal. So I wasn't sure if I should post it here. However when I started to read my emails this morning, I saw that a lady had sent me a dream she had last night. What made me decide to post both my dream and this woman's dream here is because they both are... intimately connected. We call this shared dreaming or dream synchronicity.

The thing with this phenomenon of shared dreaming is that what it means is that we were in the same dream. Technically speaking this means that it is likely that this is not, technically speaking, only a dream anymore in the individual sense but has meaning to the collective. Therefore I feel I should publish it. Anyway, I will leave it at that for now and will post first my dream and than the woman's dream.

My dream (Dec. 17): "The world would stand still for a week. Shift. A new allignment. I felt the shift. Like a whole turn or rotation. Everything is paused for this. Aliens are taking over. But albeit at the same time a new system is coming out of it. I am being interviewed by a man in real time. Meaning that it is being broadcast as we speak. It's about what is happening; about what will come out of it...

...I said the elite will lose all their power. A new era has dawned. Those ready will move on. A take over is being attempted too but... Bodies are being snatched and used. I saw how this happens. But we are safe. There was a long list of questions on his paper. He asked about the implications for the Church...even about Jung...The interviewer also asked me on: (that) nuclear weapons to prevent war (balance). I said we will use them if we have them. They don't prevent.

...During the interview some kind of attack or approach is waged. Like some object or being approaches us in the air. The interview is done in the open air like next to a beach. The interviewer gets like uneasy, but I told him don't worry leave it; and the closer it came the more it dissipated and became a plastic-like toy head of a pig. (end of my dream).

I will now post the dream of the woman: "Dreamt about big alien ship. I was walking in a park covered with snow.Big alien ship appeared above. Little alien ships (looked like footballs, they're illuminating the dark park) started to fall down around me. I ran North, I heard a scream...

...I changed direction and turned south. Couldn't get away. I got lifted up in the air. I stayed hanging in air high above the ground. Woke up". (end of dream and post).

Statistics can't Catch the Individual

2009-12-16T00:54:00.001-04:00

Last night I had the following dream:

I was explaining to a Dutch man and a friend of mine: "That we can't catch individuals in statistical groups. We are too complex. Everybody is unique and different".

How the programs and patterns parents and adults are stuck in are passed down to children

2009-12-16T00:47:00.006-04:00

I dreamed the following on the 13th (Dec.):

"I'm giving a session about how the programs and patterns we as parents and adults are basically stuck in are given (passed down) to children. How this was done via meaning. We basically hand down our world view to children by and via what we tell them ("teach") them things mean; and what we believe are the causal links between things.

This is done for instance even what an object means. For instance i will subtly make my son worship cars, if cars are the most important things for me. The problem is that all the wrong links and beliefs are passed down to our children.Basically what we call education is simply engraining into our children and the children our outlook and beliefs about the world.

If we believe all men are untrustworthy and promiscuous, we will subtly and tacitly pass this belief down to our children. If we deep down feel we are not good enough we will make our sons and daughters feel this.

A woman in the session got quite frantic at realizing the magnitude and gravity of this problem of how we were passing down all the wrong beliefs and meaning to our children and was affraid this could never be corrected. I said: "Don't worry...the fact that we are here doing this means that we are going to change this...". (end of dream)

When does a problem become a problem?

2009-10-29T13:00:00.002-04:00

Most people think when you can't solve something or when you can't control something. The real answer is: when you think, something is a problem, you are creating a problem. When you say it is a problem, you believe what you think, and believing - the problem has been created.

Double-Slit, Schrödinger's Cat and the Psyche

2009-09-14T01:19:00.007-04:00

At this point in time, it's the professionals that are the problem, for they have been trained in the very system of thinking which is the cause of the problem. hence we are busy trying to solve problems with the very system of thinking that has created them. This system of thinking, currency in science, creates a theory (abstraction) and generalizes from this. this is how professionals have been trained/conned. theories of the world exclude the observer. this is the core of the problem. the idea (in the quantum world) is that the act of observation collapses the probability amplitude into a particle based reality. when not observing it's a cloud or wave of probability (information) in super-position. At the quantum level (below sub-atomic particles) this is a fact and proven with the double slit experiment. so in the Schrödinger's Cat experiment when the box is open we observe. of course the main question is what at the macroscopic level corresponds to this quantum cat. I will leave this for another time or video for it has to do with synchronicity. as with most person's reaction to this cat or quantum reality, Einstein could not live with quantum theory. he believed in a mechanical picture of reality (signals could not travel faster than the speed of light). therefore he said god does not play with dice. Dice in this statement refers to the probabilistic nature of reality (wave-functions) implied in the quantum picture. you see including the observer (which includes psyche/psychology) in the picture of reality changes the whole ball game of the way science generates knowledge. Professionals trained in mechanical/classical/newtonian science (read all) are very allergic to including psyche in the picture of matter...and so also to the idea of mind over matter...which is the inevitable conclusion of the findings in quantum physics. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=au6ZnnVc44g

I am just one that came (since) you/all are dying...

2009-07-11T01:43:00.008-04:00

dream:

People are dying.
A man came,
who has come
through lives and lives.
He says: ”I am just one
that came like (since) you/all are dying,
whose statement
is to be penetrated (understood)"

External versus Inner reality

2009-06-03T14:10:00.006-04:00

External reality contains illusion, lie and egoism, it is bent on breaking and more division; While within contains the truth, and is based on healing what is broken

Addiction is not a Chemical Dependency

2009-05-30T14:32:00.004-04:00

Drug and Alcohol addiction in particular and addiction in general is a thought pattern; not a chemical dependency

Lemuria dream

2009-05-30T02:24:00.003-04:00

on the 23rd 5. 09 I had the following dream:

I went to a class of a Mexican professor. He gave me all kind of materials on Lemuria. There was even some device in it. it was like a book and it could play music by opening a page and moving it up or down. there was also like a little tip or cup which one could put the tip of the finger in which would also have some very advanced technological effect in the book. There was further also something with China, like alot of people there gone allready.

A Question about Thinking

2009-05-12T14:26:00.006-04:00

I would like to get your take on the following question:

Do you believe it is possible for you to say something without thinking first about the thing you say?

see http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-QTRC8Xrvc for answers

The Only Empirical Reality

2009-04-21T13:35:00.002-04:00

The only empirical
reality is the individual.
The rest is projection.

Phoenix Rising Dream

2009-01-28T21:31:00.005-04:00

On the 27th of January 2009 I had the following dream:

I/we were putting this eagle or phoenix back together. There were like only pieces on the floor.

The more we put it back together, the more everybody was saying how it's heart was/started beating.

It was simply like a teddy bear type of thing we were putting back together while in it a heart was beating.

It was weird but tremendous.

Rumi on Projection

2009-01-13T13:48:00.003-04:00

Fear for Yourself

Everyone's death is of the same quality
as himself;
to the enemy of God, an enemy;
to the friend of God, a friend.
Your fear of death in fleeing from it
is really your fear for yourself.
Pay attention, dear Soul!

Hermaphrodite Dream

2008-12-13T01:05:00.006-04:00

Yesterday I had the following dream:

I'm in a class with a man talking about a certain sound of a bird. While he is talking about this sound in actual fact we started to hear the same bird outside of the room we were in. While this is occuring I am seeing something being born from a shell. A bird was being born from a shell. The bird had two heads. The shell was very special, like if it was made of precious stone and trimmed in gold.

I AM Dream

2008-11-20T16:00:00.003-04:00

We are teaching a new method to a group of children

I am...the tree
I am the water
I am the food

We can only fully understand something by becoming (part of) it.

What is the difference between the Psychologist and the Psychiatrist?

2008-10-02T02:18:00.009-04:00

As a psychologist practicing psychotherapy, I have often been asked the question of what is the difference between psychology and psychiatry or of the psychologist and the psychiatrist.

The answer basically revolves around the difference between the mind and the brain. The psychologist's core training revolves around the mind (psyche) and the psychiatrist around the brain (soma). First, the two are not the same. And whereas the psychiatrist tends, given his core medical training, to retrieve mental phenomena to brain processes, we now -with the advent of a more profound understanding of consciousness- can say brain processes result from the mind.

The following quote of Freud sheds some light on this question:

"...in his medical school a doctor receives a training which is more or less the opposite of what he would need as a preparation for psychoanalysis. His attention has been directed to objectively ascertainable facts of anatomy, physics and chemistry...His interest is not aroused in the mental side of vital phenomena; medicine is not concerned with the study of the higher mental functions, which lies in the sphere of another faculty. Only psychiatry is supposed to deal with the disturbances of mental functions; but we know in what manner and with what aims it does so. It looks for the somatic determinants of mental disorders and treats them like other causes of illness.

Psychiatry is right to do so and medical education is clearly excellent. If it is described as one-sided...In itself every science is one-sided. It must be so since it restrict itself to particular subjects, points of view and methods. It is a piece of nonsense in which I would take no part to play off one science against another. After all, physics does not diminish the value of chemistry; it cannot take its place but on the other hand cannot be replaced by it. Psycho-analysis is certainly quite particularly one-sided as being the science of the mental unconscious."

Freud, "The Question of Lay Analysis', 1926, Standard Edition, Vol. XX, p. 230-231.

Thinking the Same Way and Expecting different Results

2008-10-01T00:08:00.008-04:00

Day after day badness is increasing and worsening in the world, and still until now we don't realize that it is our own system of thinking which is the cause of this badness. Our system of thinking has turned us into immoral beings without feeling (the feminine; see video below). And worse yet we think that this very system of thought, which has converted us into these abominable beings, is the one that will hitherto liberate us from all badness. Our minds are so polluted, that the pollution which it contains inhibits us from seeing that we are ourselves creating that false hope in ourselves.

Quo vadis mon ami, Quo vadis?

Papiamento translation:

Dia tras dia maldat ta aumentando i empeorando riba mundo i tog te ainda nos NO ta quere cu ta nos propio sistema di pensa ta causante di e maldat aqui. Nos sistea di pensa a comberti nos den sernan inmoral i sin sentimento. Anto pa colmo nos ta pensa cu e mesun sistema di pensa cu a comberti nos den sernan abominabel, ta esun cu por sierto ta bai libra nos tambe for di tur maldat. Nos mente ta asina sushi cu e sushedad cu tin den dje ta stroba nos di mira cu ta nos mes ta creando e speransa falso einan den nos mes.

Quo vadis mon ami, Quo vadis?

Meditating With Open eyes & The Shadow

2008-09-30T03:17:00.005-04:00

Touching the shadow (the practice) is really a meditation with open eyes. When unaware of our projection we are actually caught in the projection and tend to believe it to be real. Yet becoming aware of the projection is basically stepping outside the bubble of that content or thought that is projected versus being engulfed or encapsulated by it when not aware that it is a projection.

When aware of the projection we also thus become aware that the thought or content isn't true. In this way we can remove ourselves from that content. In this way and quite similar to meditation with closed eyes, which is depicted as going in between the thoughts, when practicing touching the shadow we basically sojourn between our thoughts (contents) if you wish -only now it is done and achieved with open eyes-. In a prior blog this space between the thoughts has been referred to as superposition while in other traditions it is also referred to as the "Now" (Eckhart Tolle).

What Sin is too Big...?

2008-09-26T21:38:00.008-04:00

Last night I had the following dream:

I was walking in an unsafe place. I was about to be mugged. As they came toward me from the back and started to corner me, instead of running, I sarted to like try to lift off the floor. Somehow I knew to do this. To my amazement i started to lift off a little off the ground. It was very realistic though, not flying just like I knew the position like to lean and just float a little. And like the more I tried the more I started, however very gradually, to lift off and float upward to a height where they could not get me. However the higher I started to float the more they stood there like wondering and amazed. This shifted the whole setting. Next I'm sitting with a man (Omar is his name). I sat next to him like singing a song when he told me he couldn't do something. Somehow I knew what he just did. I was singing to him: what sin is too big for god? The lines of the song went something like:

...is that sin too hard...
...is that sin way to hard...
...is that sin way too hard for god?

I woke up and clearly remembered the melody and the tune of the song. If I had a recorder at that moment I would have been able to record it.

Purpose of Touching the Shadow

2008-09-25T16:45:00.010-04:00

While science is based on knowing the object based on consciousness. Touching the shadow is based on self-awareness which is technically therapy. I basically observe how I am observing the object or other. The result of self-observation, if you whish, is not to know external objects but, eventually know, and know via, Self. This Self-archetype is according to Jung not anymore a psychological archetype but what he calls psychoid, which has been referred to in Jungian circles as a transcendental subject (E.F. Edinger). Or put differently one awakens here to a deeper expanded experience of self. The result here is to get to know and experience deeper levels of self and via this a a sense of reality where self and other are not experienced as separate vis-a-vis the classical scientific approach where a sense of seperateness ensues to the world or object due to getting to know the object.

Early Origins of Touching the Shadow

2008-09-25T15:29:00.010-04:00

In Acts chapter 95 & 95 of The Apocryphal New Testament, Jesus told his disciples:

"A mirror am I to thee that perceivest me."

"Behold thyself in me...perceive what I do, for thyne is the passion of the manhood, which I am about to suffer."

Through the Eye of a Needle & Denial

2008-09-25T04:55:00.003-04:00

It is not easy to change someones thoughts, because by nature people are egotistical and their egotism guarantees them that their thoughts are 100% correct. Those that think not like us are thinking incorrectly. No one believes that their thoughts are incorrect. This is why it is so hard for us to change our thoughts. The only way to change someones thoughts is by convincing them that their thoughts are incorrect. Yet to convince someone that his/her thoughts are incorrect is very hard. It is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for someone to admit that their thoughts are wrong.

Wanting to Know

2008-09-24T00:36:00.006-04:00

In order to get to know you need to want to know because
when you want to know your own wanting to get to know
makes you hear the soundless voice of the master (within)
who silently tells you all the things you want to know.

Look Soldier Look Inwards (2)

2008-09-23T03:06:00.003-04:00

Mentally people are so confused and exhausted that they have lost their innate capacity they inhere to activate their minds directly themselves without depending on a cause outside of themselves, in order for that external cause to affect their minds and stimulate it to create the dark thoughts which they are thinking and which have them mentally so confused and exhausted.

A Psychological Solution of Schrodinger's Cat

2008-09-21T20:39:00.018-04:00

Is the glass half full or half empty?

This perennial imponderable was basically revisited in quantum physics with the Schrödinger cat, and the question whether it is dead or alive? The essential idea that this experiment introduces into the observation problem is the idea of probability which is the opposite of objectivity and fixity. This also introduces the idea of prediction thus. We are dealing here, psychologically, with expectations which are predictions.

The essential idea this thought experiment is based on thus is that we don't know something until we look or observe; and that it can go either way until we observe. Until then the cat is flying which is the state between dead or alive and which contains all possible (infinite) possibilities (superposition).

The true nature of quantum physics at macroscopic scale is thought. Thoughts are the equivalent of electrons. I will see the glass as half full depending on the state I am in. If I see it is full (the cat is alive) or empty (dead) I will expect it and tacitly make it occur or load the dice toward that outcome. In real macroscopic life I will tacitly conspire toward killing it (in order to reduce cognitive dissonance). This type of (tacit/unconscious) tampering with evidence, which classical research is fraught with, is made impossible with this thought experiment.

So one core message of this experiment is that when retrieving (our view of) reality to thoughts (sub-atomic particles) and probabilities we find that we create the (predicted) outcomes when we believe them. We see what we believe. Yet the deeper message in this koan of sorts is that the true goal to achieve is to not disturb reality or maintain the state of superposition: i.e., the state in between full (alive) and empty (dead) which is representable as the flying cat. When we don’t expect and or re-take our projections (touching the shadow) we are indeed outside of normal space-time where everything is thus possible (or we don't disturb the cat). So the answer to the question of whether the glass is half full or half empty is that it is neither, one does not make up ones mind and remains in the fuzzy state of ambiguity.

Woman, Orgasm & The Shadow

2008-09-19T03:59:00.003-04:00

The woman is historically the shadow. Until today the feminine subjects (arts etc) live on the fringe of the curiculum. The feminine has been completely banned from the universities, leaving them emotionally dead. Yet deeply enthrenched in medical theory we still find relics testifying to the deep roots of the exclusion of the feminine. The following is a little curiosity which illustrates how the woman has been the subject of great repression historically, scientifically and medically:

In 1870 John Davenpoort would have us believe that women shouldn't have orgasms at all. "As he described it in Curiositatis Eroticae Physiolgiae (1875), the result of orgasm in women was that:

"She burns and as it were, dries up the semen received by her from the male, and if by chance a child is conceived, it is ill-formed and does not remain nine months in the mother's womb."

(In "Taking charge of your fertility" By Tony Weschler, MPH, 2006 p. 246).

Fractured Thought

2008-09-15T03:15:00.005-04:00

The moment someone makes a fracture in the thought he is thinking, this fracture opens the door of his life, without him knowing this, to friction. And wherever there is friction automatically there is resistance. Strange is that when someone makes a fracture in the thought that he is thinking, he thinks more about the part of the fraction that makes him turn cold. And the more he thinks now the colder he gets, until at a certain point his own thinking freezes him completely.

It is difficult for someone that is frozen, to escape by himself from that side of the fraction because in order for him to escape he has to change his perspective toward the other side of the fraction, which is the side that automatically lights a fire in him, and keeps heating him up from within until he aids the fire to accomplish its mission. The mission for which the fire was lit.

Thoughts & Probabilities

2008-09-14T03:46:00.001-04:00

The Stars in the sky are
thoughts and probabilities.

EDUCATION AND WOMAN & MAN

2008-08-30T15:39:00.004-04:00

Because of the ignorant education we have received (and are receiving), from the time religion enterred our life, today we are experiencing a plethora of sexual problems. We have always been educated to view ourself as either man or woman. The consequence of this is that men started to believe that they are different from women. Today this has gone so far that men believe women have different feelings than men, and different thoughts, and different reactions, preferences, likes, etc etc.

EDUCASION I HOMBER & MUHER

2008-08-30T14:24:00.006-04:00

Pa motibo di e educasion ignorante cu nos a (ta) hanya, for di tempo cu religion a drenta den nos bida, awendia nos ta experienciando masha hopi problema sexual. Semper nos a worde educa pa mira nos mes como homber of muher, pero consecuencia di esaqui ta cu e hombernan a cuminsa quere cu nan ta diferente for di e muhernan. Awendia e hombernan ta asina leuw cu nan ta queriendo cu e muhernan tin diferente sentimentonan cu e hombernan, i diferente pensamentonan, i diferente reacsionnan, gusto, gana etc. etc.

WOMAN & CHURCH

2008-08-30T02:09:00.001-04:00

The greatest problem has been the
exclusion of the woman by the church.

OPPRESSION OF THE WOMAN

2008-08-29T22:13:00.003-04:00

For many years men
have kept women down,
by pretending that woman
was created from
the rib of a man.

OPRECION DI E MUHER

2008-08-29T21:54:00.004-04:00

Pa hopi anja hombernan a wanta e muhernan abou, door di pretende cu muher a worde crea for di e reebchi di un hober.

WOMAN & MAN QUO VADIS?

2008-08-28T12:53:00.004-04:00

That man and woman have to accept their opposite (within), in order for the human being to recover it's central position in life, is a fact. A position that today is wrongfully disputed (in a barbaric form) between man and woman; because man at all costs wants woman to accept that man is superior to woman, and woman wants to humiliate man, in order to show men that women are superior to men. The acts they commit to proove their superiority to each other are barbaric. Among others men invent wars in order to fight and kill eachother without compassion; and women react with the same viciousness that they don't need men for nothing in their lives. They can satisfy themselves sexually; and not even to get babies do they need men anymore. In this fashion slowly but surely the distance between man and woman is becoming ever greater. The time has arrived to admit, that between woman and man there can be no inequality. We are all human beings.

HOMBER I MUHER QUO VADIS?

2008-08-28T03:00:00.007-04:00

Cu e homber i e muher mester aksepta nan banda opuesto pa e ser humano recobra e puesto number un bek den bida ta un facto. Un puesto cu awe equibocadamente ta wordo disputa (na un forma barbaro) entre homber i muher; pasobra e homber kier cueste loque cueste e muher aksepta cu homber ta superior na e muher; y e muher kier humilia e homber pa e mustra e homber cu muher ta superior na e homber. E actonan cu nan ta comete pa mustra nan superioridad na otro ta barbaro. Entre otro e hombernan ta inventa guera pa na bringa i mata otro sin compasion, i e muhernan ta contesta cu e mesun visiosidad cu nan no tin mester di homber pa nada den nan bida. Nan mes por satisface otro sexualmente, i ni pa nan hanya jui nan no tin mester di homber mas. I asina poco poco e distancia entre nan ta birando mas hancho. E momento a jega pa admiti cu entre homber i muher no por tin disigualdad. Nos tur ta ser humano.

EGO

2008-08-02T01:48:00.002-04:00

Ego: maybe on micro cosmic/small terms
it’s the essence of all badness on planet,
yet on big scale, it’s what we are truly about.

Behavioral Problems

2008-06-21T04:35:00.000-04:00

Training: Managing Behavioral Problems

Next week 25/26 June 08 I will be giving a training to the teachers of a school sector (EPB) on Aruba on: "Managing Behavioral Problems". In general at schools of Aruba we have been witnessing increasing behavior problems, like violent behavior etc in schools. This school sector, which the majority of the young people on Aruba attent after elementary school, and to which the training will be delivered, stands out by far as having the most serious behavioral problems on the island. It has been experiencing increasingly more serious behavioral problems under students and between students and teachers.

Look Soldier Look...Inwards

2008-04-03T15:27:00.008-04:00

Look teacher look...
Inwards
and thy battle shall be resolved

Look soldier look...
Inwards
And thy battle shall be resolved

Every Step Forward was a Step Backward Encountering Themselves

2008-03-17T05:12:00.004-04:00

Every step they took,

thinking that they were approaching the(ir) truth,

was a step backward encountering themselves.

Chain Reaction

2008-03-16T00:13:00.003-04:00

Feelings (sentiments) are really an illusion. If there is no thought there is no feeling. What we think has consequences for what we feel. And what we feel is inevitably translated to actions and behavior. If we change what we think automatically feeling also changes.

Choice and Thinking

2008-03-08T02:35:00.012-04:00

We find ourselves constantly doing what we don’t want to do. I say something which I regret later. We are driven and controlled by external and alien forces. But we have a choice, for instance, to not let one silly traffic incident spoil the rest of our day. We even have a choice as to what we think. We can change what we think. We can become aware that what we are thinking about someone (which is classically a projection) is not true. And hence we can choose to think something else.

We can choose to not think. (Free) choice and will predate and fore-go thinking. They operate thinking and thus feeling. The work of touching the shadow and re-taking projections is actually not thinking anymore. It is consciousness.

Illusions & Projections

2008-02-23T04:53:00.004-04:00

Illusions are basically referring to experience within the matrix of the relative. Like time, it cannot be measured without space and vice versa. Yet as the definition of relative clearly states; the relative is the contrary of the absolute. Absolute means perfect, complete or pure; hence the relative is polluted and dirty. It is something or some value or experience which is only considered or exists in comparison to something else. In this sense it has no inner or intrinsic value. It is done for external reasons versus for its own sake, en esse. In this sense it is a cloned reality or an image, not the real thing. The relative is always dependent on something else for its own value. The synonym of relative is dependent and in this sense it is the opposite of the real individual. It is conditioned and thus like a chameleon changes given the conditions it is in and thus it is not unconditional. In this sense it is always subject to fear or bribery; compromised. In terms of a personality we refer to it as false for it is one face in front of this person and the opposite in front of the other. It contradicts itself. In this sense of its definition as being proportionate; it is what we refer to as the shadow or the resonance of the bright side.

I always perceive the other relative to the state I am in. In this sense when not at-one with my shadow I am the proportion. I am caught in a matrix of relativity which is referred to below as the world or desert of illusions. If I am too hot I will experience the other as too cold. If I am full I will experience the glass as half empty while if am down I will see everything as too big for me (the glass is half full). I have no way of ever knowing what the glass is if I’m caught in resistance and thus in relativity. That is as long as I generate a shadow (resist). Only when I’m free of resistance and thus between too much and too little, when I contain the shadow, can I experience the glass beyond relativity.

Here what I experience is that I am the glass. The matrix of relativity veils me from a deeper reality where I am one with the glass. Space and time is here traded for non-locality which is referred to as the concept of eternal and spiritual. In this sense when we touch the shadow we connect to absolute silence and truth and unconditional love. We see the pain in the other for we have also seen it in us. This approach vis-à-vis the relative materialistic approach to medicine was depicted in a dream as: “At the end of the dream started to feel incredible love for this/these sick/blind people: agape love.” The proxy reality of the illusion veils us from this deeper reality which we can only know first handedly.

There's always 2

2008-02-20T13:51:00.004-04:00

Everything has two sides; a positive and a negative side. If you decide to pursue the positive soon you will have to confront the negative, which you have always avoided. If the positive is there, the negative is also there. If you ignore this your eyes are shut.

Glued in Contradiction

2008-01-31T04:14:00.002-04:00

The real problem is not keeping the other honest, but self deception. We are unaware of the contradiction we are glued in. As long as we remain split in below mentioned two poles/persons, we tend to be caught in contradictions yet remain unaware of this. In terms of above mentioned message one side of us thinks he is curious and inquisitive while he hides the side and opposite that is terribly closed minded. What makes it difficult to recognize the contradiction we are caught in is that the side we least want to be (the shadow), which we yet also are, is projected on the other. In other words the inner contradiction or conflict is played out and experienced via the other. A woman tells her daughter: “you can’t think that I’m the kind of mother which looks on and enjoys the daughter’s pain…” Another older woman who feels terribly insecure and afraid to be at home alone (when her husband is abroad) tells her son upon suggesting that her grandson sleep over by her: “I don’t want him to think he has to babysit me.” This is a projection and basically a side of her is saying this to herself. Her rejected more secure and self-confident side is basically telling herself this and in somewhat sarcastic terms. The first woman is basically accusing herself she is looking on and doing nothing to help her daughter.

Another man goes on and on about his businesses and money and how important it is for him to have his financial affairs in place etc, and at that point says: “I hope you’re not thinking I am materialistic”. In both cases this is the shadow basically replying and responding to the dominant opposite side or self which has gone into somewhat extreme degrees. Here what is really happening is that one side is basically calling/accusing the other of being a materialist, a sadist and a ‘baby’. Yet this inner contradiction or debate is not caught within but another is blamed for “seeing” or thinking he is a materialist…

In this sense the way we feel the other is thinking about us is basically the way we are thinking of our self. For instance when someone projects anger onto the other it can be construed as a part of us which is looking onto the deceiver in us, so to speak, is angry at our self or the deceiver. There’s always a part of us looking onto ourselves. We get this often for instance when we feel others envy us or are jealous of us; or also when we feel others hate us because we are so great, successful etc. This is also a side of us which is at odds with ‘the monster’ (the inflated side) and is bent on bringing him down. This is of course the dynamic underlying conflicts and fights. I will fight the projection in the other. Yet we cannot kill the shadow. Full excising of the shadow leads to our own demise.

If we could become aware of the projection and thus re-take it we would be able to enter into an inner debate and dialog which could eventually lead to a compromise of sorts. The materialistic side would be cross fertilized by the more idealistic or social side and in that form the materialistic penchant could be countered and a form of balance or synergy could ensue. The same goes for the woman suffering from great insecurity. Yet when the other is blamed for feeling (actually us feeling) materialistic: 1. we can remain in denial of the extent of our one sidedness and 2. We don’t own and accept the side that the dominant person/pole in us is rejecting and fighting in the other.

The big problem is that this part of us that is at odds with the dominant side returns in different forms to terrorize and boycott the plans of the deceiver in us. This becomes the root of self-sabotage, disease and accidents in our life. In the life of the great physicist Wolfgang Pauli, the “demon” or shadow would return in his dreams as a figure strongly at odds with Pauli’s physics and which would be setting places afire which would be associated with this physics. But also outside of his dreams a term was coined for the weird accidents which would occur when Pauli would come around physics labs and such sort places. The term was the Pauli-effect. It is necessary to unite in one sole existence.

From Within

2008-01-30T03:35:00.009-04:00

Today in a workshop I gave to a group of teachers, a teacher/psychologist asked me how can you get to change a student if the student totally denies that she needs any change or that she has to work on anything. The more they tried to convince the student of her error and problem the more the student started to say that they were trying to talk a problem onto her while there was none.

I more or less told her that my method works among others with dreams. In general it is based on tapping the inner potential (feedback) of the person. In dreams we find the natural feedback of the person toward themselves. Our best chance for change is to tap this natural source of feedback of a person toward themselves. In order to do this as a change agent or therapist we have to be in the now to tap what is going on here and now, and thus out of any preconceived notions or expectations. We are simply the translator of the feedback of the person toward themselves, which can come from a dream or other sources. The unconscious is simply the flow from which we tap. Real teaching is unleashing inner guidance. This is the most plausible form of working with change. It is the person, or a part of the person him/her self, which is telling him/her self what needs change. In this sense we must be attuned to the natural flow going on in and around us. Our role is to translate and mediate the messages. Not to tell the person what to do. Therefore there's a very thin line between facilitating and enslaving. Ours is not the role of judging and telling the other what to do. Change imposed from without is manipulation.

Marie Louise Von Franz on Touching the Shadow

2008-01-26T15:49:00.003-04:00

Here follows the transcript of this video:

"If not more people try to reflect and take back their projections, and take the opposite within themselves, there will be a total destruction. There are allot of people who go through life and the unconscious is not a reality to them. They say at breakfast I had a funny dream, and in the afternoon they know nothing about it. But if we paint them and interpret them and think about them, the dream becomes real. And that's why you need to be lonely so the unconscious becomes stronger. It's like loading up the unconscious and than it manifests. Hermes Trismegistus said in one active imagination to an alchemist: "I am the friend to whoever is lonely". We have now preceding the man who pours water into the fish. Now the fish is the unconcious; so we have to support the unconscious. It's not enough to just have it. We have to actively turn toward it and support it, so that it then helps us. Jung once said: "The toads and the frogs are god's first attempt to make man on a cold-blooded level. And then he didn't quite succeed, so he kept the idea in mind." There are many people are not in analysis but they are naturally gifted, which I would call: they are honest. And they find these things without analysis. I have lived in this tower for 8 weeks alone without speaking one word to anybody. And I sometimes thought I was going off my head. But the unconscious became alive. It was my path. Jung: "There are no other similar beings like man. That thus are articulate and conscious; can give account for their functioning".

Listening To Me Talking To Myself

2008-01-26T04:27:00.002-04:00

We are constantly talking to ourselves via others. When talking to the other we tacitly see a part of us we prefer not to see within. A woman tells me: "You will tell me I'm a materialist...but ...and she continues to tell me how for her material security etc is of great importance." This is a part of her that she is experiencing in me; or thus projecting on me. This is the part of herself which feels she hangs too much to the materialistic side. Yet she prefers to not see this side in herself, and hence ends up experiencing it via me. Her less materialistic side she is projecting on me and hence subsequently blames me for her feeling materialistic. This leads to not owning the too materialistic bent and to rejecting the less materialistic side within.

This inner talk or (here) conflict is constantly raging in us; yet there's no way to solve the conflict if the person remains unaware of the fact that it is in them. The point is that there's one side of us that is at odds with our dominant side. When listening yet more closely to ourselves and others we find the conflict before it is projected. A woman wearing much higher high heals than accustomed to, says she is afraid of having heard a voice in her tell her, while she was walking down a stairway, that she will fall and break her neck. This side could also be played out in terms of projecting on the husband that he doesn't want her to wear high heals.

Yet here we catch it before it is projected. This shadow side (or demon) can toward extreme conflict in the person literally attack itself. A woman once reported that in front of a stop light she had all intention to step on the breaks and that her leg out of its own stepped on the gas ramming into the car in front of her. But it can also react to us in our body as for instance a man who is overly active in wanting and demanding too much sex from his wife turns impotent. A man wanted to give a hand in a funeral ended up kissing the family member of the deceased person.

If we listen fast enough to the shadow (unconscious) it can make us extremely proactive in using the shadow to create great balance in us. For what this voice of opposition in us is actually trying to achieve is to curb our one-sidedness. Only, toward extreme one-sidedness it reacts in an equally extreme form. But when we truly listen to it and give real consequence to it; that is act upon it; it becomes an incredible tool and compass in creating balance in our own behavior and decisions. Yet more pro-actively we catch it in our dreams, which is where it first emerges only to subsequently play itself out during the day. When this is done it leads to a shift in outlook where we stop being reactive and realize we are creating the patterns we keep stuck in.

So the way we feel the other is looking at us is a part of the way we are looking at ourselves.

Purpose of Blog

2008-01-20T21:08:00.004-04:00

This first entry is to briefly state what the blog is about. First of all this blog is a log book which records thoughts regarding the practice of catching projections or touching the shadow. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yyg86ucrQrA&feature=PlayList&p=86E5508D208BBA15&index=8

The shadow is a concept which emerged with Jung representing a part of us which tends to stay under the radar. It emerges in the way we perceive others in terms of projections, but also as an active force (and part of us) which keeps us honest. The nature of these entries will be personal short musings and ruminations regarding the nature of the shadow.